Crush

Crush

His eyes met mine

And I knew that I was sunk

Candle lit stars shined

Across me,

An arm reached…

 

An embrace capturing my soul…

 

As he glances down

Upon my face

I melt as he notices

The passionate heat in my pearly complexion--

He sees a gem beneath

A tyrant flame

Burning is my compassion for him--

When he notices that…

I’m alive.

 

Who am I but an object of

Affections?

Emotive being

Who wishes he would love me,

As I love him…

I’m not really sure how it goes,

But its sad and its sweet;

And you don’t recognize till its complete…

How great it was that gift you had

The present of another’s encounter

Of their own free will they partook with you

The breaking of bread

Two became one in the elemental structure of life--

Complete and debunked of the solitary state of loneliness.

Oh how I wish that you would love me again;

take me in you arm tonight

Gaze upon the sky

And ponder about life.

 

I long to have you wrapped around me--

I’m enraptured by the simplicity of an:

“I think he likes you”…

Muttered form your… lips;

My lips are sealed

Because I miss you.

 

I don’t want to talk,

I don’t want to be

A menace

To a society that rejects me.

 

I’m on the edge of glory

And I tipped over the precipice the day you left.

I’ve been falling, falling, falling down

Figs for faulkers, dates for…

Um… I don’t know…

I just have a rose garden with buds

But now they float aimlessly about

From the flood of my own disgust, the day you left

 

My God!

Is there any relief in this world?

 

I’m not a soldier but I will freedom fight

For the privilege to be by your side,

I want to be a reflection of you

A mirror reverses my image

And I appear opposite of what I really am…

I form a contradiction of my own self,

As I build my life around you,

I cry…

I’m getting older,

And soon will approach the day that

I will die.

 

I don’t want to leave you.

Terminal…

The change scares me…

In the absence of being, will I ever see you again?

I must leave--retreat

Like a soldier marching backwards

Into town

Perhaps you’ll think

That I too am doing something

Other than what is occurring in reality…

I come towards you

In order to slowly recede

From the reality of me…

The reality of the unseen,

I speak the unspoken and condemn myself

To the utter dismay of failure…

 

A life without you…

This is not life.

I love you,

And our secret passion

Flutters in my heart

Like a flock of birds

Happiness rushes out of my body

Leaving me with the memory

Of you.

When we make love its understood

And yet,

When we’re out in the open…

 

I’m a loathsome

Reproachful

Creature

That you don’t want to

Acknowledge?

I’ve been waiting

For a person like you;

To release me

By coming into my life.

As you meet me,

I know that I’m sunk;

Drowning in the drink of life

I’m shallow!

 

How do you really feel about me?

Do you reciprocate my feelings?

I see fire and ice

Rain pours down on the wilting flower

That once stood proudly,

Erect.

 

I’m crushed by the force that was our love…

Falling down again,

I can’t get back up,

To my feet,

Crumbled under the weight of the

Disappointment

That the sun would shine

On us forever

And the night on the park

Would remain forever a dream

Shared to us in…

Reality. xxx